Tomorrow will begin my sixty fifth year of life. I don't think that I can remember a time since I have been in my pre-teens that I have not had some concern about my weight. In the early years mostly about how I looked but in the last three decades of my life, it has been as much about my pleasing the Lord in taking care of the house in which He gave me to live. I may go out of this world not having done what I would like to do in this area of my life but I pray that I will always be found trying.
Tomorrow as I go out to Cracker Barrel to eat breakfast with my husband, I will have to keep the important things in my mind. I know me, if I do not, then I will regret it in a few days. I am very thankful that God has given me these wonderful years. I have learned so much about Him and how I should be pleasing Him. I have learned things that I thought I would never see in a different way. But thought his grace and the wisdom He has given to me, I see things today that I was not able to see before. So I am looking forward to knowing my Lord even better in the years or days or moments that He still gives me.
I can not say that I have full control of my emotions yet but they are under much better control today than they were a couple of months ago. I haven't been faithful to exercise yet but I have not given up. I have not lost but I am keeping the weight under control with God's great help.
Sometimes, I wish that I had a body where I could just eat whenever I got ready and be slim and healthy as could be. I have prayed for such a situation for many years. I am afraid that for some reason it will never be that way for me in this life. Maybe if I were some slim "chick", I would not be what I should be for the Lord. I don't know what the reason ,but I do accept that this will be my fight for the rest of my life. I will continue to try and when I fail, I will try some more. If I were to give up, I know that my length of life would be effected. My health would be in great jeopardy. So, I will just trust God and continue trying. One day though, in heaven, I will be perfect and these things will not matter, but until then-----------may you find me trying. connie